Friday, January 2, 2009

3:30pm - Jan. 2



New Year's Eve in Mankato was interesting to say the least. Everyone was really awesome to us. After we played we were shown around to parties and given a place to sleep. It's good we found somewhere and didn't end up spending the money we had just made on a hotel. The police were going crazy around the time of "last call" at the bars. They where calling all the locals names and being more annoying then helpful. But when are the police ever helpful? We woke up around noon, ate some sandwiches and headed back to Minneapolis. It was a bright new years day. Which reminds me, I still have to make some resolutions and see how I did on last years.

I've been sleeping a lot lately. Somehow, it feels like if I just sleep I won't have to deal with any of my day to day problems. Like when I wake up, I'll have money to pay the rent and then some. Or when I wake up, I won't have to worry about how I'm going to eat today. Maybe when I wake up all the work will be done and I'll nothing but free time. But I wake up and nothing has changed, so I go back to sleep for a couple more hours in hope that next time I wake it will be different. After I do finally get out of bed, I find that there is no longer time to accomplish all of that. The doors have already opened and closed. And it hits me like a ton of bricks. Anxiety and migraines kick in. But I'm hopeful, because when I do work hard, it does pay off. And in the end, as long as I still have my friends, everything will be alright.

1 comment:

Brandon said...

I really sympathize with having an unhealthy relationship with sleep and work. It is basically identical to the one you described. =/