A new beginning. If ultimately this music is what matters to me in this life. This band was it but the band isn’t good enough. I am not holding back. If this is our project and I’m dedicating 20 hours a week and you can’t spare 2 then fuck it. My 20 hours is down to checking email a few times a week and the 5 hours I spend at the show. The load-in, the load-out, promotion, that’s all part of it. Yeah I stayed out all night, yeah I had to work a 10 hour shift the next day. For what? 15 bucks. The chance to play for a few drunk friends. I’m done with amateurs. If you don’t have what it takes, don’t waste my time.
21 feels too old to start over. At 17, I thought I had it all. I thought people took the word “serious” seriously. I thought you wanted to put “entertainer” under job on your 1040. But the past year has brought us less then 2 steps further. So I bite my lip and count my loses. It’s a shame. I’m trying to move forward. Stop Drop isn’t just a name, it’s the commitment that I won’t stop playing music till I drop dead.
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